It may sound a little weird, but I have always hated my birthday. I’m not sure what it is. I do not like the idea of growing up and aging another year. My parents tell me it has always been that way for me. Apparently even as a child I would just cry about gaining another year on my life. I hope it is not just me who is like that, but everyone else I talk to about it does not feel the same.
Because of the way I view my birthday, I usually have a pretty bad day. I look at the day through a microscope all day and as soon as something tiny goes wrong, the whole day is ruined for me. I hate this about myself. It causes me to look back on the day and regret every negative view and feeling I had throughout the day. I am not kidding at all when I say I do this with every single birthday as far back as I can remember. Sad, right? I know. The only time I give myself a pass for how I viewed my birthday is the past 2 birthdays I had. That being my 21st and 22nd birthdays. It was a rough time in my life and there was no way my birthday could have been any different than all the other days, horrible.
This year, however, my birthday meant more to me than aging another year. I saw it as being able to completely leave my past years behind me and step into 23 as a new person. This feeling was extremely strong and exciting for me. I had an amazing 23rd birthday even though I spent the morning of it at home alone. The rest was spent with family, friends, hibachi, and cake. I was able to enjoy every single moment that day because of who I am today. I am a much happier, better person and am excited to step into 23 years of age with a fresh feeling.
If you have had a rough couple of years, try to view your next birthday as a way to completely leave all of the bad, whether it be in others or in yourself, behind. Step into your new age feeling fresh and amazing.
