One of the scariest questions I constantly have on my mind is, “What am I going to do with my life?”. That is a loaded question. Towards the top of my list is to be an amazing wife and mom in the future. I also have been attending college to become a child life specialist. I chose that career based on my love for children and helping them find joy in the scariest times. I also chose that career because I was that sick child in the hospital when I was younger. At a young age I was diagnose with Lennox-Gastaut syndrome. In short, it is a seizure disorder where you experience all the different types of seizures instead of just one. I was extremely sick and not expected to live. But I did. After an extremely rough couple of years I was able to celebrate having my first day without having a seizure. I have not had one since and only have small long-term effects from my disorder.
At the time I did not really understand what was going on. only that I was different than other kids and could really only eat certain foods like mayonnaise and pepperonis. Looking back now, I see Jesus in all of it. I was not supposed to live and here I am! I am able to do anything I want in life and that was never expected. After I came to that realization I decided I wanted to have a job where I can help the terrified kids that are spending their lives in a hospital. That is why I chose child life as my career.
More recently, however, a harder question crossed my mind. “What am I doing with my life that brings more people to Jesus”. I mean that is genuinely what I want to do with my life. I want to make Heaven as crowded as possible. I am aware that I can do that through child life, but I want to serve Jesus more than that. I want to do something that would allow me to help others and bring them to Jesus. So, I dug into the talents God gave me. Not long after making a list I came across writing. I absolutely love to write. I enjoy writing essays, writing in journals, anything that allows me to express myself in that way. Then it hit me. A blog! That is something I could do that allows me to utilize my talent of writing and show my love for Jesus. I began this blog, a soon to come podcast, and even a book. I have decided I want to do child-life part time because I have a huge passion for that, but nothing outweighs my passion for Jesus. Because of that, I also want to have my blog, become an author, and a speaker one day. I am currently working on all of it.
It is crazy to think that only a few months ago I was crying over my future and where I was headed. Now I am working on all sorts of things that are passions of mine, that bring me joy, and that help others. We are on this Earth to serve Jesus and bring others to Him. What are we doing with our lives if that is not what we are doing? As Christians we should be utilizing our God-given talents and love for Him to serve Him. I want to help as many people as possible to find Jesus and you should too! That is why we are here. That is our purpose.
What talents has God given you that you can use daily to bring others to Him? Are you using them? I have major regrets looking back on my past for not using mine. I moved people away from Christ instead of towards Him. But I have repented, am forgiven, and am moving forward in my passion to make Heaven crowded. I encourage you to do the same.
Kokonaomi
